Tuesday, March 26, 2013

Being Too Socialable

Hello everybody. Again, I apologize for the long blogging hiatus! I'm actually visiting my boyfriend at his place right now so I unfortunately do not have my DSLR on hand so you'll just have to settle for Macbook photos for today. However, I decided that since it's the morning right now, I'll type away on a different kind of topic while my boyfriend snoozes away... (He's definitely not a morning person).

Just because I hate blog posts that lack personal pictures... I'm suffering from one of those, what on earth do I do with my hair?! Kinda days. 

So I know many people claim their personalities to be awkward. Typically, they would describe themselves as socially awkward, don't know how to talk to people (primarily of the opposite sex), always does the wrong thing, says the wrong thing, you know, all that stuff. There's so much hype about Jennifer Lawrence and her quirky awkwardness, but lets just say you can be awkward in a whole different way.

I, for one would never claim to be socially awkward. In fact, I'm quite socially unawkward, if that's a word. I've never had trouble speaking in public, meeting new people, talking to adults, authorities, boys, girls, you name it, I'm fine with it. But beneath all that outer confidence I may carry along with me, I seem to carry along tons of inner awkwardness with being too sociable. Now I know it doesn't make a whole lot of sense, but let me explain.

My whole life I've been awkwardly taller than everyone, just a tiny bit bigger than everyone (not big enough to be one of those big and confident girls) and was just... always the girl who tried too hard to be friends with you. When I met people, the first thing I'd want to do is become your friend. No matter if you give me a bitch vibe or if you seem like the sweetest girl in the world. I'd try so hard, oftentimes it would turn you off to being my friend. 

"Man, that girl is soooo weird! She's like soooo talkative and in my face!"

Yep, that's as close to a description of me as you can get. I've been called intimidating, over hyper over everything, or "the really annoyingly talkative girl". It's gotten to the point where, although we're now friends, my college roommate has noticed when we first met. She's more of the quiet, don't know how to talk to people type of awkward person, and she mentioned how when we first met, she didn't quite want to be my friend since I was so "in her face."

"She talks way too much."

That was the description my junior kindergarden teacher gave to my mom during my first ever parent teacher interview. Nothing has changed. Honestly, a lot of people get turned off by me because I've got this inner awkwardness that makes me super afraid of awkward silences. You know, when the two of you just awkwardly stare each other down without saying anything. It's not that I don't try to change it, I do. But there's some things about your personality that sticks with you no matter what. People have called me a bitch because I spoke so much and tried to be friends with everyone. (I honestly don't know how that even correlates) Trust me, it feels no better than if someone were to call you stupid because you said the wrong thing. 

Okay yeah, there was too much text so I threw in another picture.

The moral of this post is not to just to talk about myself (well yeah, maybe just a bit) but to introduce to you another perspective of awkward people. If you see a girl who seemingly has no problem talking to people or making friends, she too, is being judged for who she is. Maybe you're one of the stereotypical awkward people, but it doesn't mean people who know how to talk to other people always have it perfect. 

We're all being judged for who we are.

So next time before you assume sociable people have life easy, just remember no one has life easy. He/She may seem too excited to be your friend, but try not to think of it as creepy, but attempt to appreciate somebody taking the effort to try with you, and reciprocate it.

Thank you.

Friday, March 8, 2013

Friday Blues

Hello again pretty laydays! Sorry about not posting for two weeks... You know, reading week, then midterms, essays and all that good jazz! Okay not really. It was quite painful actually. I'm still pain as I've still got two papers due next week, but whatever! I can deal with it. Oh and I just got a new job! Yay, means less time for blogging...

But to the good stuff, yesterday I had some break time and proceeded to playing with makeup as per my usual remedies to boredom and pulled together one of my favourite looks ever, blue on neutrals. Have I ever told you that I loved blue! It's right up there under purple! So lets take a look at it...

Oh by the way, I got new lenses and I love them! They're GEO Princess Mimi in Sesame Grey! 


Face:
Laura Mercier Foundation Primer
Maybelline Fit Me Foundation
Revlon Age Defying Concealer
Dionskin Forever Compact Powder

Cheeks:
Hello Kitty Bronzer
Inglot Blush (Sorry I don't know the name but it's peachy!)
NARS Albatross Highlighter

Oh god my eyebrows look so uneven in this pic. I'll remember to fix it next time!


Eyebawls:
Urban Decay Primer Potion
Joe Fresh Eyeshadow in Ice
MAC Eyeshadows in Talent Pool, Wedge and Charcoal Brown
NARS Galapagos Eyeshadow
Loreal Lineur Intense in Blackest Black
Loreal Voluminous Mascara in Black

Lips:
Fresh Sugar Lip Balm
YSL Rouge Volupte in #9 (dabbed!)

HAHA! I'm not done yet... My friend Priscilla and I actually went clubbing over the past weekend so there's another look for you! It's my favourite colour...

Oh why hello up there... Excuse the strange b*tchy look! It was completely unintended!

Face:
Tarte BB Primer Treatment
Lancome Teint Idole Ultra Foundation
Almay Smart Shade Concealer
NARS Loose Powder

Cheeks:
NARS Laguna Bronzer
TheBalm Hot Mama Blush
Essence Twilight Highlighter


Eyebawls:
Elizabeth Arden Eye Primer
Hello Kitty Wild Thing Palette (silver, lilac, matte purple)
NYX Black Eyeshadow
Smashbox Liquid Eyeliner
Loreal Voluminous Mascara in Blackest Black

Lips:
Revlon Lipgloss in Petal

Now THAT is it! I'll talk to you soon! I seriously have so many things lined up to review, seriously.

See ya next time loves!